Monday, March 31, 2014

Essentia

The best thing about you
Is that you exist
Just the way you are
And it's absolutely wonderful

Monday, February 24, 2014

Perspective

I used to always wonder
When my life would really start

And then one day I realized
That my life started the day I was born

I used to always daydream
About the things I wanted to do

And now I have no time for daydreams
So that I have more time to live

Every day is better than anything I could imagine

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Omne

Sometimes I wonder how my life could be different
I imagine another universe

Where I made other distinct decisions
Where I chose to get close to a separate array of people
Where I decided to like another variety of things

I would love to explore my life in that universe
It would be utterly fascinating

But I would love exploring my life in that universe even more
Because I think my appreciation for my life as it is now
Would grow infinitely

Saturday, February 1, 2014

We Were Sitting On Your Bed

I think my favorite moment
Was the first time you ever played for me
Because it was the first time
I felt overwhelmingly loved
Inside and out

Friday, January 10, 2014

Thank You for Your Existence

I'm like a polar bear in the Amazon
And you're the snowfall outside the jungle
Even if it took a hundred years
To climb through all the tangled vines
I'd do it just to feel you for a day

I'm like a broken streetlight
And you're electricity
Even though my circuits are out of control
And I don't work like I should
You still keep me going

If I owned my own car
I'd drive thirty miles just to see you every day
Even if there's fifty feet of snow
And the world is ending around me
You're worth it

Sunday, December 15, 2013

F1N@L$

i literally hate everything
who invented this
this lifestyle is not for me
if i have to write another paper
i'm going to snap
i'll either kill someone
or break my pencil
i don't know yet
these exams are bullshit
grades are bullshit
the school system is bullshit
it's all complete and total bullshit
and 8 papers worth of words about history
mean nothing to me, the future movie editor
like what
who designed this system
it's so flawed
if you fail a final
you could fail a class
which dramatically affects you're GPA
but you have to stay in school
in order to get a job
but to pay for school
you need a job
but to get a good paying job
you need experience and a good education
which you get from other jobs
and the education you pay for
does no one see the flaw in this
yeah
so don't tell me to stop worrying about finals
because it could affect my whole future
and lifestyle
and how my future family would live
which is a crazy concept
for a teenager to have to worry about
when we aren't even fully considered adults yet
i can't even rent a rental car
or consume alcohol legally
but we have to somehow struggle to pay for our education
and make life-altering decisions
based on a system that's rooted in consumerism
and doesn't meet the needs of individuals
the system's fucked up
but the people it's affecting don't have the power to change it
because we don't have the money or social status yet
since we are struggling to work and pay for school
and we're so busy worrying about finals
it's bullshit

Monday, November 18, 2013

Yin vs. Yang

Often it's
So hard to see
The good
Within the bad,
And yet
So easy to pick out
The bad
Within the good

We pick apart
Ourselves
And point out
The flaws in
Those around us
In attempts
To find acceptance
And love

Our minds
Work backwards
And have been
Turned inside out
By the influences
Of society
And the ideas
Of how life
Is supposed to be lived

It's impossible
To figure out
What is "right"
And what is "wrong"
When those are
Simply words
With no real definition

Sunday, October 13, 2013

You Make Me Better

the rhythmic
sound
of your
light snoring

and the gentle
thumping
of your
heart

are just
enough
to shed
drops
of light

in the darkest
corners
of my
soul

Monday, September 30, 2013

Please Don't Cry

I recognize the fear in your eyes
It's the same that I see when I look at myself in a mirror
And I wish I had all the answers
Because then we'd both feel better
But I don't

The only thing I have to hold onto is you
But I want you to know that you can hold onto me too
Because maybe one day we'll have all the answers
And we'll both feel better
One day

Until then we know that at least we have each other
I can listen to your heartbeat and you can listen to mine
And maybe that will be just enough
To drown out the rest of the world
And we can feel better for a little while
I love you

Friday, September 27, 2013

College?

Bass pumping
Phones glowing
Crooked smiles
With a side of beer

Hand-holding
Sarcastic fighting
Forehead kisses
Just get over here

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Is Ignorance Bliss?

I think it's kind of funny
The way you glare at me
The way you whisper about me
The way you fake cough
And call me a slut

And I can't brush it off

While all of these other girls around you
Are glaring at you
Are whispering about you
Are hating you for luring them
Into your college dorm bed
And afterwards call them sluts

And you have no idea

What you've done to anyone
Because you're too busy glaring
And you're too busy whispering
And you're too busy drinking
To sleep with different girls every weekend
Instead of dealing with your own problems

And that's a sad thing to think about

So I feel sorry for you
For what you miss out on
For how you try to impress others
For the way you settle
In such an empty lifestyle
But mostly

I think it's kind of funny

Friday, August 30, 2013

Why Did I Wait So Long?

I find it funny
Looking back now
And realizing
That the day
I finally stood up for myself
Was the day
They all stopped talking to me
Because they saw
How they could no longer
Control me
So then they wanted
Nothing to do with me

I find it funny
Looking back now
And realizing
That the day
I finally stood up for myself
Was the beginning
Of the best days
Of my entire life
And I have
Absolutely no regrets

Thursday, August 22, 2013

The Story So Far

I love how we can be
Serious
And
Stupid
At the same time

And everything's perfectly fine
Even
If
The world is
So incredibly fucked up

Because I know that
You're
Right
Here
With me and for me

Even if you happen to be
Miles
And
Miles
Away from my longing hands

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Warped Together

I haven't written in a while
Because I've been busy
Being completely devoured
By everything that you are
And everything that I never want to let go of

You're the best kind of beautiful person
In the most imperfectly perfect of ways
With your hypnotizing eyes
And your delicate smile
And your fascinating mind
And everything that I never want to let go of

Monday, July 15, 2013

"Correct"

This is good
This is real
This is true

My only fear
Is that I become
A burden to you

But
the
second
your
hand
is
in
mine
all
my
fears
fly
away

Sunday, July 7, 2013

How did this start again?

My phone lights up
And I get
Butterflies
All over again

I can only imagine
What it's like
When you're
Right in front of me

We're still nearly strangers
But it feels as though
I've known you
For a thousand years